Write Up- Pain

Pain

I may not fully understand pain,
But I know I have felt it,
My heart racing faster,
I can feel my veins constrict,
And I feel like I am falling from a tall building, 
Tears rolling down my cheeks uncontrollably,
I feel so empty and weak,
My world seems to be coming to an abrupt end,
I just want it to stop,
I cant focus, neither can I concentrate, 
I am lost in a world of my own,
And when I need you the most, you left like a ghost,
I am not perfect,
This time I just want to hug myself and say its okay even though I know its not,
Till this hurt fades away..


Dr Jide Oyegbile (JBlaze) @itsjblaze

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